Hey everyone!!! I’m back!!! So I fell off the face of the Earth, which was pretty awesome. Floating in space can give you a new perspective on life.
Actually what happened was that my life got a little busier after I stopped focusing on the online dating world. I guess that one guy kind of messed up my thinking so now I’m all wide-eyed and bushy tailed (that’s the expression, right? I didn’t just pull something from my ass?) ready to start again.
The main reason that I’m doing this again is because I found out from one of my best friends that this blog was a great support system for her because she just started online dating. I guess talking to your friend about this stuff and reading about the misadventures can totally change your view about it. So let me say that I’m still using POF and OKCupid, but I think I’m going to use the serious relationship stuff for OKCupid and POF…well that website can just go to the Kardashian residence (yes, I do believe that’s where hell exists!!!). Actually I’m still keeping up with that account because I decided to do a new format to this little blog.
I think that on Mondays, I’m going to put up the pictures that are adored by so many people and the rest of the week will be whatever. I feel like if I do some sort of schedule, that I’ll be more dedicated to this and who knows, if I fall off the face of the Earth again, I’ll have more interesting story from that journey. Later today I will post the awesome pictures and tomorrow I will talk some more about online dating and maybe some other stuff.
Have a great day!!!
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I’ve heard of the saying that God can only give you what you can handle. So I’m ever so slowly getting out of my “funk” with the support of my friends and family. Before I say anything else, I thought I would share this funny story that happened to me last week. So a friend of mine convinced me to join a Meet Up group in our area to meet new people. This group occasionally has get togethers every couple of months and there’s one that’s actually coming up tomorrow. Well there’s one guy in the group that I kind of like, but of course, I never had any luck with him because he doesn’t pay any attention to me. So imagine my surprise when I get an email from said guy saying that he saw that I was a part of the group and if I wouldn’t mind talking online sometime. Well of course my heart soared, I was excited, and then doubt creeped into my mind. I was wondering why this was happening. So I clicked on the profile. Did you guys know that some people can share the same first name? Yeah…this was not the guy that I liked. This was a guy who stumbled across my profile. I was going to give him a chance until I saw that he was a member of a group that catered to cougars and fans of cougars. Yeah…my skin crawled a little bit after discovering that bit.
So since my dating life is back to being nonexistent, I thought I would talk a little bit about what’s going on in my life. So job hunting hasn’t been going well so luckily my aunt is letting me volunteer at her office for experience to put on my resume. October is my birthday month. With that being said, I’m hitting a major milestone: I’m turning 30. So like any normal adult, I’m throwing a joint birthday party with my friend and it’s going to be a costume party. Yup, I’m THAT sophisticated. So since it’s a costume party, I was trying to look up costume ideas. I thought about being the Corpse Bride and was looking on YouTube for makeup ideas. I came across this song and it made me remember how much I love Danny Elfman’s music in Tim Burton movies. I started searching for more songs and then Edward Scissorhands popped up as well. I love the ice sculpture scene from the movie and the music that goes with it because it’s so hauntingly beautiful. I guess I could say that it’s my sad music…hehehe.
I did pick a costume and I shall be Batgirl. Woo hoo!!! Now I just need to find my Batman, but in a more romantic sense.
Charlie hasn’t contacted me. Awesome. I have no job. Awesome. The best part of my day is surfing the new Harry Potter website. However, the site is down majority of the time so when it’s down, I get sad. I really don’t have the energy and enthusiasm right now to look for new guys. I think I might be depressed. Yesterday I drank some wine in the middle of the day. I’m guessing that’s not a good sign either. Yay life!!!
I’ve been putting off looking at more guys because I hate looking for guys. HATE IT. I would LOVE if I was pursued, but at this point, I feel like I have to do the pursuing. The only times that Charlie contacts me is through email to get his videos. UGH. He needs to be patient. To fill the void in my life I decided to get sucked into the Wizarding World of Harry Potter and joined the official Harry Potter website known as Pottermore. That website is so addictive!!! I guess this is why I’m single…
Another thing that I’m worrying about is finding a job. Job hunting really sucks. I’m also trying to plan a joint birthday party. That’s right folks…my birthday is next month and I’ve decided to do a costume party. Does anyone have suggestions for a kick ass costume?
I’m soooooo lazy when it comes to online dating. Like, extremely lazy. I know that things are pretty not going to move forward with Charlie, but I’m just not too eager to get back on the horse. It’s just so much work and having to wait for someone to reply…it just takes FOREVER. Charlie did email me today. He’s willing to hang out with me in Austin, but he does want his videos and pictures. Awesome. Well we know where his priorities lie…so…yeah. I remember last night when I was sending him a reply email, and I got help from my friend, E on what to say. I wanted to make sure that I didn’t sound too desperate because then he would just think I was pathetic. Does anyone else have this thing about overanalyzing emails before sending them of to a person of interest of the opposite gender? I think it’s just a girl thing. I wish I had to send out the perfect email without thinking too hard about it. I know that guys really don’t read too much into stuff, but you just NEVER KNOW.
Anyways, my title refers to a new TV show starring Zooey Deschanel. She’s a dorky girl who got out of a bad relationship and trying to find a guy. I’m totally that character. I’m such a dork and clumsy and goofy girl but I can’t find a guy. The only difference is that I don’t live with three guys. I don’t think I could actually do that. I think the smell alone would just bother me. I’m going to practice my dorky dance moves now so that way I can star in my own reality show about a dorky girl who can’t find a guy. Yay life!!!
Last night I threw back a couple of drinks with one of my best friends (shout out to you M!!!) to commiserate about our love lives or lack thereof. That’s right, I said lack. At that point, Charlie didn’t contact me. After much talking, M helped me come to the conclusion that Charlie liked talking to me, but he wasn’t physically attracted to me. Basically I was in the friend zone. Fun times. To be honest, yesterday I was thinking about that date and wondering what I did wrong, but I didn’t do anything wrong. I was a little sad because he wasn’t into me. Today I felt a little angry towards him because I know that I’m a good person and worth a shot. I realize that I had a shot with him and it didn’t take. I can’t force someone to like me and vice versa. I had the mindset that I wasn’t going to contact him until he contacted me first because I don’t want to look pathetic and sad.
Well he did contact me. He emailed me about sending him the pictures and videos taken at the concert. He then asked, “How’s it going?” That’s how the email ended. Well I totally saw that coming. I feel like that email confirmed that he’s not interested in me anymore. I sent him an email back saying I’ll send him the stuff when I can and that maybe I’ll see him at a bar in Austin this weekend. That was adult, right? Damn, I should have deleted those pictures and videos when I had the chance. ;-)
To boost myself esteem, my friend is going to give me a Grease makeover. I’m going from sweet Sandy to slutty Sandy and try the new look out in Austin. If Charlie still is repulsed by me, at least I could attract another guy, right? Let’s see how this turns out!!
I think I was just on my last date with Charlie. That’s right. I rushed home in order to blog about how it went while it’s fresh on my mind. Why? Because I’m THAT awesome.
We met up for dinner which went well. We had good conversation and there were no awkward pauses or anything like that. I felt we talked more during this date then any other date. So I felt this was going really well…oh if I only knew. Charlie then offers to drive to the venue. We find parking and are running a little bit late for the opening act, but I told him I was fine and not worried about rushing. He really wanted to get a tshirt so we wait in the merchandise line then we get drinks and get to our seats. He forgot his camera, so I let him use mine. We took turns taking pictures, and I noticed that he was taking video of almost every song. We talked a little bit during the concert, but he mainly concentrated on taking video. So after the concert ended, we talked a bit about how we felt about it and other random things. He made comments about me walking in heels, and I told him that his comments meant that he thought I was talented. When we get to my car, we sit in his car talking for a minute. Charlie then just looks at me and says, “Well bye.” For a split second I stare, then say goodbye and go to my car, and he drives away. No hug. No plans for meeting up in the future. The other dates ended with a hug and plans for future dates. I’m pretty sure that it’s over. I mean, there’s only so much a girl could do to show interest in guy. I would lean into him when talking to him. When we walked together, I would brush my hand against his. I think I should have taken it as a sign when he crossed his arms at one point while walking. When he said goodbye, I felt like I was in a comedy and just had to laugh to myself. I’m surprised that I’m not more devastated about the outcome of this date, but I think it’ll actually hit me tomorrow. At this point, I just have the attitude of saying, “Whatever” to the whole situation.
He’s a nice enough guy and I’m pretty sure he’ll contact me one more time to say goodbye, and if he doesn’t, that’s cool. All I have to say is good luck Charlie on trying to get your videos which pretty much took up majority of my memory card. Not bitter about that part. Not bitter at all. What does all of this mean? I just have to go back out there and start looking again. We all know how much fun THAT is. *sigh*
The second date with Charlie went really well. We went to a restaurant, talked ,went to a bar, talked, walked and talked, and I got asked out on a date for Monday night!!! (Insert girly squeal of delight). So like any normal girl, I call up my best friend and give her all the details (Shout out to you, E!!!). After I get off the phone with her, a sense of dread hit me. I start reliving all the moments where I felt like a babbling idiot and realized that maybe I seemed “too smitten” with him. A sense of dread hit me when I realized that I might be more into him than he is into me. WTF?!?!? Why am I overanalyzing everything?!?! UGH!!! I need to learn how to leave out of my head and enjoy the moment. Does anyone have advice on how to do that?
So tomorrow we’re suppose to see a band called Bon Iver. Since I’m not up to date on music, I decided to look up the band. It’s an indie band who I never heard of so I decided to listen to the music. Holy crap. The songs are super mellow. Like Jack Johnson mellow. Like mellow to the point where I know that I would fall asleep since we’re going to see the band at night. So I’ve decided that I need to listen to the songs a couple more times because I think these are the type of songs where I have to listen multiple times to enjoy them. I am going to give these songs a chance, dammit!!! I’m going to use these songs to psych myself up for my date tomorrow!!! So many exclamation points!!!
On a totally different topic: While getting ready for my date, I decided to watch on of my favorite movies, Stranger Than Fiction. (Click on the link for the trailer if you never heard of it). Anywho, there’s a song in there that I really like. Will Ferrell’s character learns a song on the guitar and it was this song. For some reason, I really, really like this song. I guess because the guy is singing about how he’s willing to search the whole entire world for the woman that’s meant for him. I dunno, I guess I find it kind of sweet in a punk rock kind of way.
Well it’s back to the mellow sounds of Bon Iver. If you have heard of this group, please give me a good song recommendation. Your help is greatly appreciated!!!
